13 July 2017

The Black Poet

It was early morning in Ibarra, Ecuador, and all the bars were closed except for a small, one-room tavern at the edge of the old city. It stayed open for men who were committed to their drinking. The police did not bother with it so long as the drinking was done quietly. At a wooden table inside, I was sharing liter bottles of beer with an out-of-work carpenter, a belly dancer, one very drunken photographer, and the Black Poet of Ibarra.

The belly dancer had just finished her performance and returned to the table. She wore a green sheer dress and a sparkling bikini top, and she jingled when she moved. Four old men at the other table looked at her longingly. She smiled and was not ashamed of her bad teeth. She very much enjoyed the attention.

The Black Poet stood and announced that his poem for me was now complete.

He asked that the pasillo music be turned off. From the pocket of his corduroy jacket, the Black Poet produced a jagged piece of convex glass. It looked as though it had been broken from the bottom of a bottle. He held the glass to his eye and he began to read the poem he had written on both sides of a small square of paper:


– PETER –
Undiscovered friend, pollen of light,
Dragonfly that heeds the pollen of the setting sun,
Torch of wind inflamed,
You noble rebel of thought
Your heart is a tear of rain
That no one can undermine to fail
Your thought is perfect, but cold
Like a game of death
On the outspoken lips of life
You love not philosophy,
But love instead the sad and cloudy mirror
Of the fool’s heart
Go and fill your pockets with wind
And having no longer the ugliness of words
All shall be yours
The perfect, impressible beauty of the heavens.


The photographer had his head on the table and was asleep. The belly dancer put her hand on my thigh. Your poem was beautiful, she said. Take her upstairs if you want, said the carpenter. The Black Poet handed me the square of paper. The poem was written in a shaky but elegant script. The poem is now yours, he said. Please, will you do me the favor of walking me home? 

The Black Poet was old and very sad. His wife of 48 years had just died. He walked slowly and talked to me of Augustine and Nietzsche and the Pre-Socratics. He talked of how life might have been had not men become so reasonable, had not the myths been rejected and the gods exiled. I told him that his verse about having pockets filled with wind was going to stay with me a long time. The Black Poet lived nearby and I slept a few hours on his couch until the sun came up.

21 June 2017

A Message for Suscal

There was no one else staying at the hotel and the doors of the empty rooms were left open. My room was on the third floor and looked out at the plaza and the basilica and across the rooftops to the higher mountains. Cañari men and women crossed the plaza. The Cañari were short and dark and wore wide-brimmed felt hats and the women bright pink wool skirts. It was cold in the mountains and the shops closed early. The plaza was empty and clouds came up from the valley.

From the window, I watched the clouds rising. They covered the mountains beyond the town and covered the town itself and then, finally, the plaza. The clouds covered everything. There was only the glow of the hotel’s pink neon sign below my window.

The next day, it was clear and bright and I went out of the hotel for lunch. A Cañari man stopped me and wanted to know where I came from. What was I doing in Suscal? He was called Alberto and he wanted to know my religion. Was I married and did I have children? He wanted to show me his hardware store and together we walked to it. Inside, Alberto presented his wife to me. She was very short and dark, and she looked at me from beneath her wide-brimmed felt hat.

Then Alberto asked if I might prepare a message for the people of Suscal and deliver this message to them at the evening church service. I agreed to do it. We would meet at 6pm in front of the basilica.

I walked back through the plaza and made the steep climb up through town to the main road. A man passed me carrying a basket of potatoes on his shoulder and wished me a very good afternoon. Within an open door, there were women weaving on a large wooden loom. At the top of the hill there was a restaurant, and I went inside.

A young man and a girl were drinking bottles of Coca-Cola and they watched me sit down. The young man wore a New York Yankees baseball cap and a red Nike t-shirt. “Guci” was misspelled in glitter across the girl’s shirt. The old woman came out from the kitchen and I ordered the lunch special. The young man and girl laughed and whispered something.

I began to consider the message I would deliver to the people. I thought to make remarks about the simple beauty of the Cañari mountain culture and the strength of their religious beliefs and how it sustained their happiness. But were they happy? I did not know. What did I really know of them? I had seen the ruins at Ingapirca, and I knew the Cañari had resisted the Inca successfully — until the Inca used intermarriage with their women to defeat them.

The old lady came back out with a tray and set down the plate of carne, rice, and plantains, along with a glass of tree tomato juice, and she wished me good eating.
They defeated you through the women. That was one way to do it. I would tell the people not to be defeated again.

Do not let the gringos defeat you. Ingapirca will bring gringos and maybe one day some of them will stay at Suscal and make a hostel. That is how it will start. Then other gringos will create a bar and a restaurant and more gringos will come. There will be gringo money in the town and so far you will think it is good.

With the gringo money, you will pay others to do what you once did for yourself and you will begin to forget how things are done. You will learn to want gringo gadgets and pleasures. So you will have to learn the professions that make gringo money. A few will prosper in this, and the rest will be promised to prosper one day.

You will learn to stop sharing. You will learn to hoard. You will learn to take advantage of your neighbors and to create marketing deceptions and clever accounting tricks. That is called economic growth. The economic growth will cause bankers to come and make loans, and these loans will raise the value of assets. Those with assets will become very rich. Those without assets will have never been poorer, but with bank loans and indebtedness these poor will make of their lives an approximation of the rich.

With the gringo money, you will be able to live in large homes without your parents or other family members, and you will fill the home with things and diversions. They will say that you have achieved a higher standard of living. They will build tall towers so that many can live inside them and be closer to shopping centers.

They call this economic development. It is measured by the size and number of parking lots and shopping centers. They will expect you to become sober, aspiring, middle-class wage earners. But still, with a few of you, they will expect you to wear traditional clothing, work the traditional trades, and be a curiosity for tourism.

To repay the loans and maintain this standard of living, new income must be found. Foreigners will come to dam up the rivers. Corporations will come to farm the soil until it blows away as dust. Others will cut down the mountains to extract valuable ore. What cannot be monetized in the natural world will be called waste and treated as waste. They determine this through a cost/benefit analysis. There are professionals who perform this analysis and you will learn to trust them.

What is fast and cheap and efficient will be what is important regardless of its consequences. And there will be consequences. The families will break apart and mothers will be less important. The pleasure and happiness of the individual will be the primary value. The women will lust for cocktails and shopping instead of raising children. The basilica will be empty, and other than the very old and the incurables, no longer will the people have any need for God or the helping spirits.


I thought it was a good message. I finished eating and called the old woman over and paid the bill. The young man and girl were gone. I walked back down the hill through the town and crossed the plaza and went up to my room at the hotel. Perhaps my message would not be understood. Perhaps it would not happen that way at all. I stood at the window looking out. Beyond Suscal, far away in the valley, the clouds were gathering.

Indeed, I had come south to receive messages, not to deliver them.

05 May 2017

Alternative Facts

View of Resurrection Bay from the second floor of the Seward Library

In the summer of 2014, to commemorate the 50 year anniversary of the Good Friday Earthquake in southern Alaska, the Seward Public Library exhibited a series of crayon, pastel, ink and pencil drawings made by a class of Seward schoolchildren in 1964, one week after the 9.2 magnitude quake.

On display were marvelous renderings of the fires that burned on the waterfront, billowing black smoke, buildings and homes and cars destroyed, exploding Texaco and Standard Oil tanks, Resurrection Bay covered in a burning oil fire, boats washed up into the town, and tiny stick figures fleeing towards the mountains from a giant tidal wave. 

Most interesting among the drawings were two by little Jimmy Bradford. In what a half century later would be labeled "Fake News", little Jimmy Bradford had illustrated two alternate factual accounts of the tragedy and its devastation. 

In the first of little Jimmy Bradford's drawings a Nazi warplane flies over the town dropping its munitions onto the defenseless citizens. In the second, a giant reptile, perhaps a dinosaur, has emerged from Resurrection Bay and is rampaging through the buildings on the waterfront.

Perhaps the Seward boy was expressing his incredulity with the official explanation for his town's destruction. But it should be assumed possible too, that little Jimmy Bradford did indeed observe a giant sea creature and an enemy bomber from a war concluded 20 years previous, and that his account was deliberately left unreported by the main stream media.

29 October 2016

"DO NOT take photos while driving"




24 September 2016

Accident Report



At approximately 1:50PM I left Austin Coke after making a drop of a loaded trailer and picking up empty trailer TA954165. Following the navigation I exited from Reid Road onto Longhorn and then made a left turn at the light onto Burnet Road. 

Ahead of me was another Schneider truck that had just departed Austin Coke. We made the left turn and I followed him in the left lane of the two lanes in order to enter the tollway entrance one mile ahead on the left side. 

The Schneider truck and I both slowed because the light at the intersection at Burnet Road and Rutland Drive had just changed to green and traffic was just beginning to move. As I slowed I watched on my right a black PT Cruiser begin to slowly roll down the slightly inclined exit of the parking lot of a Jack-In-The-Box at the corner of the intersection. I watched the PT Cruiser cross the first empty lane and my first thought was the driver intended to pull in tightly behind me on my bumper as I passed. 

But as I passed and shifted up and began to accelerate I saw that the PT Cruiser was heading straight for me. The driver was not braking. With the truck ahead I could not accelerate faster and I watched in my passenger side mirror the PT Cruiser crash into my curbside front trailer tandem and skirt guard. I felt only a little jolt and watched the PT Cruiser spin to the side, its front bumper torn off and other pieces flying onto the road. The PT Cruiser had moved slowly as if the driver had simply released the brake on the small inclined exit of the parking lot--the driver had not seemed to apply the throttle. 

PT Cruiser rolled down this banked parking lot exit and collided perpendicular with my trailer

I stopped and threw on my flashers and jumped out to check on the driver. Two workers were already pushing the PT Cruiser back out of the road to the parking lot exit. It was an old woman and she was helped out of the vehicle and led to sit under a tree. I returned to my cab for my reflective triangles to set out behind the truck and came back to see the engine of the PT Cruiser was smoking and someone was spraying it with a fire extinguisher. 

An ambulance arrived and there were EMS speaking with the old woman who sat on the curb under the tree. One of the EMS told me she was uninjured but was not making any sense when asked basic questions. "Who is the President?" I heard her asked. "It is Tuesday," she replied. The EMS told me she believed her friend was driving and not her. But there was no one with her. The old woman had also prior to the accident attempted to enter the Jack-In-The-Box drivethru through the exit. 

Two motorcycle cops were first onto the scene and I explained what had happened. A woman named Tameka approached me saying she had been in the car behind my truck and witnessed the whole accident. She gave the same report I did and gave me her phone number in case I needed a witness. 



The old woman, who I learned was 84 years old, was taken in an ambulance for further observation. Her PT Cruiser was towed away. The front tandem tire on my truck was punctured in two places and flat and I called for roadside assistance to replace it. The motorcycle cops provided me an escort back to the Austin Coke plant where I waited for roadside assistance and parked for the night for my 10 hour break. Although the state of Texas does not assign fault in accidents, reports are written with the party most at fault as specified as motorist #1, which was in this case the old woman. I did not receive a citation. 

I realized later that perhaps I had saved the old woman's life. Had she not struck my trailer she would have continued on into the two lanes of traffic on the other side of the road. A motorist with his view obscured by my truck and the truck ahead of me would have collided with her, t-boning her car and then probably being hit by other vehicles.

01 May 2016

Endless Highway


Ministry for highwaymen. Atlanta, GA

Lake Bigeaux, Louisiana

Kilgore, TX

The mobile gospel. Byron Center, MI


King him.

Pickup in Memphis, TN

Caruthersville, MO

The lookout. A vicious animal. 

Don't mess with Texas. Laredo border crossing. 

Saint Peters, MO

One of the casualties. I-44 OK

I-84 Eastern Oregon

Truck stop at Big Cabin, OK

Tight blindside back at Wauwatosa, WI

Safety First: Paper mill at Cottonton, AL

Livestock on Indian lands, Atoka, OK

East Texas


16 January 2016

From the Road

 For Gustave Courbet. Arizona. 

 Crossing the Mississippi River into Missouri

 West Texas

 Great Dane, maker of fine trailers

 Barbecue and CB repair in Texarkana

 The flag of a great nation. 

Excellent barbecue at Bronte, TX

 Natchitoches, Louisiana

 Winter in northern Indiana

 A butte near Ludlow, Colorado, site of the massacre of striking miners and their families by Rockefeller's machine gunners. 

 Sam Houston

 North of Sacramento, California

West Texas gothic


I caught this rascal poking around my rig at a Flying J in Colorado. You can't be too careful at these truck stops. 
 
 
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